Difficulties in Sustaining #MRTNotes
And how I will write, moving forward.
To be clear, I am not drafting this post in my notebook on the MRT. I am not hunched over, notebook in my left hand, furiously writing with my right, tote bag straining my shoulder, hair all over my face, and earbuds blaring whatever I fancy. I am, in fact, on my laptop, in my chair, comfortably typing away.
This feels like a classic case of "Well, you tried." I started #MRTNotes when I noticed I was jittery on the MRT. I was trying (and still am) to reduce my phone usage and catch up on the morning pages I had unceremoniously abandoned due to my lack of discipline in waking up on time. It worked for a while until I started reading more.
I know, it is not like reading more is a bad thing. I am reading more! Isn't that good? The problem is, I miss reading back the ramblings in my head throughout my days. The people I observed. The things I heard. My brain running at 100 km/h. I want to read beyond the one-liners I wrote in my bullet journal.
Also, writing while standing was tough. My notebook is a spiral-bound A5 customized at Muji. Yes, I am that person. I have had two Leuchtturm1917 A5 hardcover notebooks before. While the paper quality is excellent, they are not ideal for field trips. They are sturdy enough to write while I stood in the MRT but are heavy and do not open 360 degrees.
Six months into the year and three years into bullet journaling, I prefer a smaller-sized notebook, like an A6, and one that opens flat or 360 degrees. Unfortunately, Muji does not offer personalized A6 options. SAD. I am sure Hands or some other shop might have them. IDK!
But all my efforts to be more of a writer and more productive have gone down the drain. DOWN THE DRAIN! I remember solving integration problems at 16. Look at me now, 31, complaining about writing my thoughts, with no deadlines, nothing! Something I was supposed to enjoy.
Inspired by Yousef Salem in the movie Yousef Salem a du succès, where he always had a small notebook, constantly jotting down his thoughts, I think I might try that approach. Maybe a smaller, more portable notepad will reignite my passion for writing and help me capture those fleeting moments of inspiration.
"Why not just use your phone?" You may ask. Well... no.